Passerby

Over the summer, I, along with my daughter, her friend, Lexi and my friend, Michelle passed by an accident on State Road 49. At first, we weren't even sure it was an accident, but something told us that we should go back and just check. We arrived at the scene and realized that it was a car vs. a motorcycle. I called out to a man wandering back and forth and calling for his dog as it ran around in the field. He said he thought he was okay, but that I should check the other guy and pointed behind him in the tall grass. Michelle and I saw the man and ran towards him, I yelled for Kylie to call 911 from my car via Onstar. We approached the man and saw that he was in a bad state and attempted to revive him although our efforts were futile.
Michelle, Kylie and I paid our respects to Howard at the funeral home and had the priviledge of meeting Howard's children and other family, although we all wished it was under different circumstances.
Several weeks later, I received a card in the mail thanking me for stopping to help Howard. Michelle received a similar card as well. I have this card hanging on my corkboard in the kitchen and look at it from time to time to be reminded that we should all strive to make a difference in the lives of someone else. The card is a constant reminder that you never know when you may affect someone elses life.
The card reads as follows: Thank you very much..even yhough you didn't have to do it. You did it anyway and it was much appreciated.
Below is what was hand written by Howard's daughter, Amanda.
"Tracy, we thank you from the bottom of our hears. You are definately one of God's angels. It puts our minds at ease to know our dad wasn't alone, to know you tried everything your could to bring him back to us. Just when you think that there is nobody that cares, you show up. You will always have a place in our hearts and we dont want to let this be the end of the relationship. we'd like for you and your family to be a part of our lives. You are a wonderful, kind, compassionate woman and the world needs more people like you."

Thanks, Amanda, those words truly touched my heart and you and your family will always hold a place in my heart.

God Speed Howard....may you be at peace and your families hearts comforted.

So theres this thing....

So there is this thing....this very important thing....its probably more than one thing really...but this thing is my heart, my emotions, my perception....but nonetheless they are a thing and they are mine.
So this heart of mine cares...cares way too much about way too many things....not something I can change about me, but on some issues I am going to try to change....I will have to see if the heart will allow just that.

My heart cares about family...family to me is those of the same bloodline with a few exceptions and those who are by marriage and those who are by my choice....so family can encompass many. Family is what I choose.
Recently, I had family show me that, although this person is very important to me, my heart, and my life....I am not so important to them. This is something that bothered me for days and then I got to thinking about other times and events in my life when this person wasn't there either..I guess I shouldn't be surprised that I do not matter to them as they do to me...not everyone cares quite like I do.

I have decided that I am going to take a step back from said individual...I am going to limit my heart. I spoke with my daughter about this subject and she initially told me to be the bigger person and just reach out...I further expressed my hearts hurt and she came to realize as I do. She told me that a person can only try so much. I am going to take my daughters advice and I am going to stop trying so much....my heart will hopefully be a little happier.

How I have missed this!

I really have missed blogging, although, I did not realize I had done so until I wanted to read something that I had written. I then went and reread some of the other things I had written....funny how I could remember exactly what I was doing or the feelings that I felt as I writing.

I am going to start blogging again...I have a million things in my head that need to be expressed...happy thoughts, sad thoughts, memories, love, matters of the heart, and just stuff...a whole lot of this and that!

Stay tuned