Friday, October 15, 2010

hallmark bullshit.

As tomorrow approaches and it has the title of Sweetest Day, I have to say that I am disgusted. Completely and totally disgusted. Sweetest Day seriously...where did that come from? Hallmark....Hallmark bullshit is how I refer to love these days. I swear it is some made up thing..its not real or it doesn't last....it never lasts. The feelings grow old, the people lose interest and become just another fixture in each others life. Usually person number one cares deeply for person number two and person number two cannot return those feelins and person number one will walk away feeling as they are less than, or unworthy of love...how could their love not be enough? Not a concept I choose to believe in anymore. Not a place I choose to place my heart. I guess when you have been let down, you just begin to build the wall...brick after brick, layer after layer of mortar....and that wall is to my eyes already...the last bricks are about to go up...and no one has shown a willingness or the love to knock that wall down or climb that wall or to take the bricks away. When the final brick is laid, it will be over..closure..finally closure. Love who needs it anyway!

Monday, October 11, 2010

What I want....

I want many things in my life...here are just a few:
I want to be noticed.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to be loved for me.
I want to be made to feel I am the only girl in the world.
I want to be hugged.
I want to be kissed on the forehead...something so intimate about that.
I want to be able to discuss life, and hope, and wants, and dreams.
I want to be heard, but more importantly, I want them to listen...really listen.
I want to laugh until I cry.
I want to stand at the ocean and appreciate the beauty.
I want to hold hands.
I want to be the only one.