Best Friends and my dilemna

Friend is not a term that I like to use loosely....so to me the term "Best Friend" holds far more meaning...its the I can trust this person with all of my heart, my fears, my secrets, my wants, and know that they have my back, and will tell me like it is without looking at me as if I grew three heads. My best friends, and I have three of them, are not there to sugar coat my butt, they are there to tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear. By best friends love me unconditionally, in spite of my lack of judgement or my quirkiness or my silliness or my Type A personality.

This brings me to a huge dilemna...I love my best friends unconditionally, but this doesn't mean we do not have our spats or our fights or even tell each other to take a hike from time to time.

I am at that point...the point of telling all three of them to go take a hike for a while. This is so not my personality at all. I am not a push-people-away-kinda girl. I am a scooop people up, hold them close to my heart, sit and listen when that is all I can do, I am the bend over backwards I will do anything to help kinda person. But lately, I have been having some resentments that I do not want to have.
I have one friend, who I am not happy with the life choices that are being made....think things are a little out of hand...and when I have approached this subject, I have been met with a wall. Another friend, haven't heard or seen much from them...far too busy to even have a conversation. Another friend, is going through a lot themselves...building a wall...and I hate this wall..the bricks and the mortar..all silly nonsense.

I guess the real issue is I am feeling pushed away...placed far over "there".
Maybe, I do need to be over "there" right now...but I am having a really hard time with over "there"....my personality is a right-in-your-face kinda personality..its I can help, its a let me help you to find the solution. Its a "I love you" and I am here to help and maybe I cannot take the pain away, but I can sit and cry with you, I can take that phone call when you need to vent, I can just go for a walk, or bring you ice cream when all else looks bad..cause ice cream is the cure for everything. Just don't keep me out...don't push me away!

And another thing...how about every once in a while...pick up the phone, don't text and say, Hey Trac, how are you doing? Just maybe, I have a thing or two I would like to discuss...I have big shoulders, but even those of us with the biggest shoulders need a hug every once in a while!